I have been MIA lately. The wintertime sickies have been keeping this momma down. And then there’s also the fact that March 8th is almost here. That’s been a pretty surreal for me. For those of you that don’t know, I am supposed to be 38 weeks pregnant right now. I’m not because I lost my sweet boy this past October at 20 weeks. If he was anything like his brothers, then he would probably have made a quick and dramatic entrance this week or next week. That’s a fact that’s still pretty hard for me to come to terms with. I would be holding a sweet baby boy in my arms right about now. But I’m not.
I am extremely grateful for the warm sunny weather we’ve been having. That has done my broken heart so much good. Getting outside with my boys is really the only way I know how to cope. I hope that it gets easier– I think that it will. The support I’ve gotten from friends and family has been so overwhelming– in the best way. I seriously don’t know what I would do without each and every one of you that has reached out to me in any way, or read this little blog, or kept up with me on Instagram. I have felt every single prayer, and I appreciate it more than I could ever say.
Cole has become quite the chatterbox lately, so that’s been very entertaining. He about melted my heart today when we went to visit Sweet Baby James at the river. He took a stick over to put by James’ magnolia tree, then he bent down to blow a kiss, and I heard him say, “I wub you, James.” [Translation: I love you, James.]. Y’all. It was the sweetest thing I ever did see. I am so proud of that little boy, and I am so happy that all of my babies will grow up knowing their angel brother, James. That really does bring me some comfort.
I have missed writing, and I promise to post more regularly from now on. It’s just been a little bit of a rough patch for me, but I know y’all understand. Also, since I set up this new site, I don’t think the email subscriptions transferred over, so if any of y’all were subscribed to my old blog, there’s a box on the side of the page where you can sign up if you’d like to receive an email notification when I post!